Coping, Symptoms, Triggers

Hiding Out With Bad Migraines

The last couple weeks have been so bad that I haven’t even updated my Twitter with my headache/migraine status. I’ve had some great swings — particularly after a massage — but they’ve only lasted a short time.

An irritating symptom right now is that I don’t get tired, but completely worn out, which then triggers the rest of the migraine cycle. With diversions like writing posts for when I’m gone in September, sleuthing for cat messes and packing for vacation, I have plenty of opportunities for exhaustion.

I apologize for whining. My bursts of energy ensure that I’m seeing a bright side and I’ve kept myself from being not not happy. But I’m still worn down from the cycle and am ready for it to pass.

I’m sorry if you’ve e-mailed me and I haven’t gotten back to you. You’re on my mind, but I just can’t get to it.

Coping, Mental Health, Symptoms

I. Am. In. Hell.

Wow, I’m having a rough time of it. The weekend was terrific and this morning was OK, but I’m back to the same old migraine stuff today. My migraines are particularly bad when I’m trying to sleep.

Finding words was so difficult on Friday that it ceased to be amusing. The post office was the airport, the refrigerator was the washing machine and the furnace. I was annoyed with Hart because I felt like he was interrupting me; really it was that I couldn’t finish a sentence.

I’m easily frustrated, can’t make decisions and the littlest things upset me. I’m nauseated if I eat and nauseated if I don’t.

Some of these are symptoms of migraine, some of depression. I’m seeing my psychiatrist on May 1 and a new headache specialist on May 16. My motivation is so low that It was hard to get myself to make the appointments.

I’m sorry if I haven’t responded to your e-mail or comment yet. Not even being up to blogging makes it difficult. I plan to use any good time the next couple days responding to you and writing posts.

The silver lining is that I can no longer ignore how bad and frequent my migraines and headaches are. This may not sound like a good thing, but now I know that I need to try some other treatments.

I can’t even edit this post. I feel so lame.