This is a reader-submitted story.
Let me begin by telling you that my NDPH are Migraines. I toiled with which section I should be completing. I chose this section so that you would know that it is possible to have a migraine everyday of your life. I have been told that this is very rare but it dose happen. So, this is “my story.”
1. I have had NDPH for _5___ years.
2. It started after: (Or just when it started if you didn’t have a precipitating event) I suffered with sporadic migraines for approx.30 years. On April 4th 2010 I woke up with a beast of a migraine that never went away.
3. After the headache started, it took _years____ [weeks/months/years] to get a diagnosis.
4. My pain level is steady/fluctuates: Fluctuates slightly
5. My typical pain level ranges from: 8 to 10
6. In addition to pain, my symptoms include: Sensitivity to light, sound, smell and heat
7. Treatments I have tried include: close to a hundred medications, a check for a PFO, 3 day hospital stay for timed injections of DHE, A TENS Unit, numerous nerve blocks with and without Radio Frequency, a Cefaly unit ($450 out of pocket) and Botox.
8. I take __0__ medications/supplements each day for prevention ( because I have tried everything they can think, including medications not intended for migraine prevention, ie. For Alzheimer’s, seizures etc.) and __2__ medications/supplements when the pain becomes unbearable
9. When the pain gets bad, I: which is all the time, I take Dilaudid 8 mg.
10. The most frustrating part about having NDPH is: I have no life. I only leave the house to go to the doctor. I can’t plan anything because I don’t know if the pain will only be an 8 and maybe a Dilaudid and 2 Tylenol will allow me to shower and dry my hair.
11. Because of NDPH, I worry about: reaching my mental and emotional limit and hurting myself to worry and take my mind off the pain.m
12. When I tell someone I have NDPH, the response is usually: come on, it’s only a headache.
13. When I see how little research and information exists on NDPH, I feel: Hopeless
14. Having NDPH has affected my work/school life by: not allowing me to do anything. If I do go out or have someone over, the extra external stimuli makes the following days a 10 on the pain scale. I had to medically retire only 5 years from full retirement (and over triple the wage).
15. Having NDPH has affected by family life by: relying on my husband for everything and I do mean everything. He even has to drive me to all my Dr appts. because I am afraid to drive because of my pain medication. Not only that, I cannot provide him any pleasure or excitement or even companionship.
16. The one word that best describes my experience with NDPH is: Loneliness.
17. My best coping tools are: my psychiatrist, antidepressents and sleep.
18. I find comfort in: seclusion
19. I get angry when people say: Take a couple Tylenol and get over it.
20. I like it when people say: I am so sorry. I don’t know you do it.
21. Something kind someone has done for me in relation to NDPH is: A friend drove 30 miles one way to have lunch with me after a Dr. appt When I am up and showered, teeth brushed and dressed (and she plans to do it again in a few weeks after another Dr. appt.)
22. The best thing a doctor has ever said to me about NDPH is: “Never give up hope.”
23. The hardest thing to accept about having NDPH is: having no life
24. Having NDPH has taught me: to know that even with my pain, there are others worse off than I.
25. The quotation, motto, mantra, or scripture that helps me cope with NDPH is: God never gives you more than you can handle.
26. If I could go back to the early days of my diagnosis, I would tell myself: “Keep your chin up.”
27. The people who support me most are: my husband, parents and best friend.
28. The thing I most wish people understood about NDPH is: it can be a living hell.
29. Migraine and Headache Awareness Month is important to me because: it draws attention to some of the things I am going through.
30. One more thing I’d like to say about living with NDPH is: Crying only makes it hurt worse.
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