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I’m Out of Cope Due to Depression

After posting Food and Migraine Frustrations: I’m All Out of Cope, I finally looked at all the pieces that were frustrating me (and how I was overreacting to everything and felt helpless) and realized they added up to depression. I was still waffling until the day I woke up and didn’t want to get out of bed. Then I knew it was time to increase my Wellbutrin.

I started feeling better almost immediately. It’s highly unlikely that the Wellbutrin made such a difference so fast, but recognizing what was happening and taking steps to change it was a big relief. I’m also seeing some improvement in my diet and pinpointing the foods (and possibly a supplement) that have been problematic. And one day out of every four is (usually) trigger-free.

Unfortunately, I’m not getting enough calories to support 300 mg of Wellbutrin without side effects. Like happened when I was on Tolerex in December, I get dizzy looking down or working at the computer. Once again, it’s keeping me from working much.

I’m still frustrated, but no longer feel helpless or overwhelmed. I’m taking each hour as it comes and trusting I’ll figure this out eventually. (That sounds so trite, but it’s totally true.) I’m not sure what “this” looks like, how long it will take or how many migraines a week (or day) it will mean. And that’s OK.

7 Responses to I’m Out of Cope Due to Depression

  1. Krista says:

    Hang in there. Having chronic illnesses is so trying on our sanity. Thank you for sharing–reminds me I’m not alone. 🙂

  2. Mary Arizona says:

    Found your site very recently, so helpful to read of others’ struggles and successes. Just wanted to thank you for posting through the pain, it is encouraging. I wish all of you out there a painfree day!

  3. Krista says:

    I’m sorry you are feeling so bad, but I do understand. I’ve been building up so much stress, it’s beyond what I can handle, so I am feeling burned out as well as depressed. As my daughter said to me, be gentle with yourself. Hugs.

  4. Denise says:

    Im with you on having Migraines daily and I have since the age of 30 before that only once or twice a week since puberty. My daughter and son have them both of theirs started in elementary school. They are horrible horrible things.

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