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Chronic Migraine Tedium

I’ve been kinda quiet lately. I’m rehashing the same old stuff in my mind and it doesn’t make for very interesting reading: “I’m sick. I don’t like being sick. I feel better than I did at my worst, but that’s still not so good. Still, if I feel better I should be doing more. I need to stop being so self-critical. Why am I still so sick?”

I can’t tell you what’s happening in migraine or headache news and blogs because I’m not keeping up on any of them. I’ve definitely had a touch of depression, though that’s finally lifted. Mostly I just don’t want to think about migraine more than I already do. I’m either having a migraine or trying to cram all the pieces of life into the the time I don’t have one. And by “pieces of life” I mean showering and cooking, not dancing and singing. I have gotten in some time with friends and done a little thrifting in the last few weeks, so it isn’t all about responsibilities.

Sometimes I think of migraine as a full-time job that requires tons of overtime. When I’m not at work, I’m trying to take care of everything that gets pushed aside, never mind that I’m always exhausted because I work so much.

I’m also struggling with my migraine reality. I expected any degree of feeling better to mean huge advances in how much I’m able to do in a day or a week. Turns out that even though I feel better, I’m still quite sick. Figuring this out has been tremendously frustrating, but I think I may be coming to a better understanding of what it means to have chronic migraine that’s only significantly debilitating, not severely debilitating. Oh, the joys of perspective.

This post sounds a little bleak, but I’m actually in good spirits. I think I just needed to get a little bit of the “ick” out. Thanks for listening.

One Response to Chronic Migraine Tedium

  1. J Hattori says:

    Kerrie
    I feel for you. Like you I have a daily migraine going on 35 yrs. Recently tried Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT) and have gotten some results. Got the book by Gary Craig the founder called THE EFT MANUAL. Can also get a youtube video free. It works on the meridians and releases past trauma. Not a cure but it does work to a certain degree. Recommended by doctors. Please try.Would love to hear how it works on you.
    J Hattori

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