I can’t stop wondering if my nerve stimulator reduces my pain at all. In the first six months I had it, I had a three month period with no severe pain. Not one day, or even part of one day, was spent in bed because of a headache. I cling to that time as proof that the stimulator helps me, but the evidence hasn’t been strong since then.
Maybe I feel better because I’m not working a stressful job that I hate, nor am I depressed. I eat real food; even when I eat junk food it is made of simple, obvious ingredients (my favorite cookies contain flour, sugar, butter and real vanilla extract). I no longer have frou frou coffee drinks, which are full of artificial flavors and who knows what else, almost every day.
I’ve been fiddling with my stimulator the last two weeks. I’ll leave it on for a while then turn it off for the same length of time. It can be from a couple hours to a couple days. Or I’ll sleep with it on some nights and off other nights. No matter what I do, I don’t feel a difference. It’s tough to compare when my pain varies so much in a day, but I have felt no worse with it off than with it on.
It is not uncommon for a nerve stimulator to help someone at first, but then stop working. It’s as if the nerves outsmart the device so they can fall back into their normal (albeit dysfunctional) rhythm. Maybe this has happened to me. Or maybe I just want my body back.